Alright blog fans, all one of you, I have not forgot about you. We have spent an amazing holiday weekend with friends. I love it when the whole family, even the dog can get out of the house for the weekend. We spent the weekend riding 4 wheelers, cooking steaks on a grill, playing cards, and just downright having fun. Most of all we were relaxed. I was with my husband and kids and we were with some of our best friends and we didn't have a care in the world all weekend. It feels amazing to know that I won't be waking up alone tomorrow morning either! I get one more day with my honey! As the days continue to pass and this deployment keeps creeping up one day means everything.
Tonight after we got home and unloaded the truck, I was making the baby a bottle and we were settling back into our house, I was just struck by this thought that just wouldn't go away. My brain was going a thousand miles a second. Let's see...this is what it may have sounded like in my brain. "Does he know? Does he know that I appreciate every single little thing he does? Does he know that he's my one and only? Does he know that I love him more than anything? Does he know that I'm completely lost when I don't have him?" Normally when I have thoughts like these I will sit down and write my husband a letter. Writing letters has always been a big deal in our relationship. He still has little notes that I wrote for him when we were dating in his wallet. They are quite worn out and there are holes in the paper and the ink is faded. When the kids and I got him a new wallet for Father's Day I asked him why he held onto them. He told me that when he misses me he will pull them out, read them, and then remember how crazy in love we were back then. Now, don't get me wrong, we're still crazy in love but another kid later and sometimes its hard to even get a kiss in. However, instead of writing a letter this time, I just completely stopped what I was doing, looked at him and said quite simply, "I appreciate you" and I went back to what I was doing. He looked at me like I had lost my mind there for a minute but then later he actually thanked me and told me how nice it was to hear that. You ever have moments like that? Moments where you are just overwhelmed with questions in your own head?
I have no crazy, zany and wonderful things to say today. I just wondered if anyone other than myself has had those moments.
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