I'm sitting here trying to figure out what to write. I haven't blogged in weeks. Probably months. I can't even remember the last thing that I blogged about. Things the last few months have all blurred together. So I guess I will start with April.
April
I got a call about my dad. He was sick, pretty scary sick. So the kids and I flew back to North Carolina. Those flights were a whole nother story! But we made it safe and sound. We spent two weeks in North Carolina with my family. My dad pulled through and is back to doing everything that he normally does. It was amazing to be back home with my family. I didnt realize how much I missed them until I was there with them again. It was also bittersweet because of my dad being sick. Leaving was another story in its own, but it was something that I had to do and I did it and we came out of it just fine.
Then less than a week after we got back to California Dan's predeployment leave started and it was my baby girls first birthday! Her birthday was on Friday and we had this huge party on Saturday. It was an amazing time with great friends. I still can't believe all of the friends who came. It shows the support system we have here.
The next day, Easter Sunday, I'm cooking a huge meal and we're having a great day as a family. I was sitting on the couch holding my daughter and waiting for my potatoes to boil for mashed potatoes. All of the sudden I felt this stabbing pain on my side. I couldn't move. I had to holler for my husband to come and get my daughter from me. I had no idea what was going on and it hurt, really bad. I tried to tough it out and it just wasn't working. I gave in and called the medical officer of the day at the Naval Hospital. I told her my symptoms and she told me it sounded like I had gall stones. She said that if I didn't develop a fever, didn't start throwing up, and could stand it, I should probably just wait until the next day and get an appointment with my normal doctor. So I got up, made my mashed potatoes, fixed plates for everyone and we all sat down to eat. The first bite I swallowed, I had to run from the table.. I honestly didn't think I'd make it to the bathroom. I have dealt with stomach viruses, food poisoning, horrible morning sickness and drunk vommiting. This was the worst case I had EVER had. I cleaned myself up and laid down on the couch and let the family eat their dinner. After they ate, Dan came over to me and kissed my forehead and asked how I felt. I told him I felt like crap and that I was just trying to deal. He felt my forehead again and told me that I was "burning up." He went and got me a thermometer. I had a temp of 103.9. Off to the hospital I went. I had my husband drop me off at the ER because I didn't feel that he and the kids should have to sit there hours too. I tell them whats going on and I'm rushed to triage. From triage I am rushed to a hospital bed and all these people start coming into the room. I have never had this much attention on me in a hospital except for when I had my kids. The doctor comes in, talks to me and away she goes. I'm layin in this bed, hearing people talk about ambulances and this that and the other. They finally bring me something for the pain. Then they come in and tell me they are taking me to another hospital by ambulance. By this time I decide I should call the husband. So I call him and he takes our kids to a friends house and then, there he is. They put me in an ambulace and then tell me I am only going to the other hospital for an ultrasound. I go and do that, come back and sure enough I have gall bladder disease. The give me pain medication, send me to the pharmacy and tell me that if I don't hear from the surgical department by 10 am the next day, to show up at the hospital. At 930 I haven't heard from them so I call and am told to come in the next day. I go in the next day and the surgeon says can you have surgery tomorrow? So the next morning bright and early there I am for my surgery. I had the surgery and went home. I recovered quite well. However, no one told me I would still be feeling the pain a month later. Thank you Lord for protecting me during those 3 days!!!!
May
We finally get a one story house because of all my medical problems!!! We move over Mother's Day weekend. Dan goes back to work and we begin the countdown. We have less than a month and deployment will be here. Nothing of significance really happened in May. We went to a Clay Walker concert. We basically just spent the whole month enjoying our little family of four. I have to say, it was a good month except for the nagging thought, "He's leaving soon." We finally got a date of departure. And time seemed to pass sooo slow until Memorial Day weekend. We spent the weekend doing what most people did. We had cookouts, we went swimming, we just enjoyed life.
May 31, 2011
We said "See ya later." It's never goodbye its see ya later. Its been almost a week. I have heard from my husband and I know that he got to his destination safely. This week has passed surprisingly fast. I have amazing friends who have kept us busy!!!! And soon we are leaving to go home to North Carolina again for a month and a half. I can't wait to spend time with my family and I know that the time will pass quickly. It will be bittersweet for the time to pass so quickly but at the same time, it will help us get through the beginning of this deployment quickly!!!!!
I wish I had something better to write about, I really do. But maybe one of these days I will have something fascinating for you phantom readers and I promise to start blogging more often!!!
Sunday, June 5, 2011
Monday, April 25, 2011
When it rains, it POURS!
Hey all you ghost people!
I swear I have not forgotten about you! Many things have been happening. Some things are really good, some others, not so good! Lets see if I can get you all caught up.
Beginning of April, get a phone call and my dad is in the hospital. It wasn't looking so hot. So the kids and I went to NC for 2 weeks. Dad did finally end up getting better, thank goodness! The day were supposed to fly back to Cali, the storms in NC hit. We get delayed. We came back home the next day.
April 22. Abigayle turned 1! My baby is growing up. We had her a big ole party on the 23rd and all was awesome.
Easter Sunday. We wake up, hang out, have a huge breakfast. Do the whole Easter deal. Then as dinner was cooking, I get this strange excruciating pain in my side. I tough it out for a little while. Finally can't take it and call the Dr thats on call. She tells me it sounds like gall bladder problems. Try to wait til Monday and then go see my regular Dr. Unless I start running a fever or vomitting. Then I should go to the ER. Well sure enough, I start throwing my guts up. ER here we come. After 7 hours I find out that I have stones in my gall bladder and I need surgery soon to have my gall bladder removed. The good thing was that the 7 hours weren't me sitting around and waiting to see the doctor. I was seen as soon as I got there and the whole time I had a whole lot of attention on me and my well-being. I go tomorrow morning to see the surgeon to find out when I will be having the surgery. I hope its soon. Dan is on pre-deployment leave and if I have to have the surgery after he deploys I wont know what to do. Who will keep my kids? Who will help take care of me?! I have no idea whats going to happen. The doctor is keeping me pretty heavily medicated until I have the surgery so I dont have many lucid moments. The fact that I was able to sit down and blog surprised me like crazy!!!
But this is all I can handle right now my ghosts. I will update soon!
I swear I have not forgotten about you! Many things have been happening. Some things are really good, some others, not so good! Lets see if I can get you all caught up.
Beginning of April, get a phone call and my dad is in the hospital. It wasn't looking so hot. So the kids and I went to NC for 2 weeks. Dad did finally end up getting better, thank goodness! The day were supposed to fly back to Cali, the storms in NC hit. We get delayed. We came back home the next day.
April 22. Abigayle turned 1! My baby is growing up. We had her a big ole party on the 23rd and all was awesome.
Easter Sunday. We wake up, hang out, have a huge breakfast. Do the whole Easter deal. Then as dinner was cooking, I get this strange excruciating pain in my side. I tough it out for a little while. Finally can't take it and call the Dr thats on call. She tells me it sounds like gall bladder problems. Try to wait til Monday and then go see my regular Dr. Unless I start running a fever or vomitting. Then I should go to the ER. Well sure enough, I start throwing my guts up. ER here we come. After 7 hours I find out that I have stones in my gall bladder and I need surgery soon to have my gall bladder removed. The good thing was that the 7 hours weren't me sitting around and waiting to see the doctor. I was seen as soon as I got there and the whole time I had a whole lot of attention on me and my well-being. I go tomorrow morning to see the surgeon to find out when I will be having the surgery. I hope its soon. Dan is on pre-deployment leave and if I have to have the surgery after he deploys I wont know what to do. Who will keep my kids? Who will help take care of me?! I have no idea whats going to happen. The doctor is keeping me pretty heavily medicated until I have the surgery so I dont have many lucid moments. The fact that I was able to sit down and blog surprised me like crazy!!!
But this is all I can handle right now my ghosts. I will update soon!
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Wow, I haven't posted lately! Things have been so stressful lately that this blog will more than likely contain a lot of complaining. But I don't care, I need somewhere to vent.
I feel like every time I turn around someone in my family is sick. Dan had the flu, then I had the flu. Then Abbi was sick. Then Jacob was sick. Then Jacob was sick again. Now Abbi has some stomach bug that is going around and guess what, now Dan has it. I'm sure Jacob or I will get it next until its worked its way through all of us. My poor son has missed so much school this year from being sick. He has fallen so far behind so many times to only have to play catch up. My husband and I, we've been vomitted on and thrown up on. Sooo many showers have been taken its not even funny! And my poor, poor Abigayle. She has gone through more than I wish my worst enemy to go through. I just wish we could get all this sickness out of our house!!!
Aside from everyone being sick, we're all secretly upset about how fast time is passing. This upcoming deployment is hitting us all so much harder than the last one did. I know its going to be harder for me because I'm no where near my family. Last deployment I was an hour away. The last time he left, the day they got on the buses, I packed up and my son and I went and stayed at my parents house for a week. Then 2 weeks later my grandmother came into town so we went back and stayed again. Thanksgiving, we were at my parents. Christmas, at my parents for days! And now here we sit in 2600 miles away from most of our family. The kids and I plan on going to visit NC but thats only for a short while. Where am I going to run when something goes wrong? Who is going to hug me when I'm having a bad day? Needless to say, I am not looking forward to this deployment. I am not looking forward to any of this. I hope those months pass quickly, I really do.
Thats all for now my phantoms. I'm done bitching. LOL
I feel like every time I turn around someone in my family is sick. Dan had the flu, then I had the flu. Then Abbi was sick. Then Jacob was sick. Then Jacob was sick again. Now Abbi has some stomach bug that is going around and guess what, now Dan has it. I'm sure Jacob or I will get it next until its worked its way through all of us. My poor son has missed so much school this year from being sick. He has fallen so far behind so many times to only have to play catch up. My husband and I, we've been vomitted on and thrown up on. Sooo many showers have been taken its not even funny! And my poor, poor Abigayle. She has gone through more than I wish my worst enemy to go through. I just wish we could get all this sickness out of our house!!!
Aside from everyone being sick, we're all secretly upset about how fast time is passing. This upcoming deployment is hitting us all so much harder than the last one did. I know its going to be harder for me because I'm no where near my family. Last deployment I was an hour away. The last time he left, the day they got on the buses, I packed up and my son and I went and stayed at my parents house for a week. Then 2 weeks later my grandmother came into town so we went back and stayed again. Thanksgiving, we were at my parents. Christmas, at my parents for days! And now here we sit in 2600 miles away from most of our family. The kids and I plan on going to visit NC but thats only for a short while. Where am I going to run when something goes wrong? Who is going to hug me when I'm having a bad day? Needless to say, I am not looking forward to this deployment. I am not looking forward to any of this. I hope those months pass quickly, I really do.
Thats all for now my phantoms. I'm done bitching. LOL
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
That girl
I am so tired of being "that" girl. That girl that is passionate about everything she does. That girl that will give you the last shirt off of her back if you ask. That girl that will do anything you ask them too without asking for anything in return. That girl that will sit and hold everything in until she is about to burst. That girl that feels like she is constantly in the wrong. There are so many things I could list.
Let me explain, at least part of this rant. Anyone ever had one of those friends that is "never wrong"? And even if they are wrong will sit an argue all day long? I'm not one of those people. Now, I am not saying that I am always right and I admit when I am wrong. But when I talk to people like this and realize that they are like this, I probably do the wrong thing and just go along with it all. I hate arguing. Tonight, while speaking with a friend that I have that is like this, I exploded. Not in a way that should have caused me to feel the way I do. But in a way that to me just seemed like I was saying "hey, over here, listen to me, I have an opinion too!" And yet, I was still the one made to feel like a jerk, like the biggest d-bag ever. And to top it all off, it was over something minute, something stupid. So I waited a few minutes, smoked myself a ciggarette and calmed down and then I apologized. And I'm not even sure why I apologized. I was actually right. But I apologized for blowing up and being right. I feel like I tucked my tail between my legs and just fed into what she was saying. All she had to say, "you do what you need to do, I'm not sweating it. It was childish." After that response I really felt like I shouldn't have apologized. It was childish and yet you were the one who started the whole argument and told me I wasn't listening to what you were saying. I was the one who was made to feel like absolute shit. And I still feel like absolute shit even though I know that I shouldn't.
So needless to say, my whole night was basically ruined. So in my festering madness I actually sat down and did some thinking. I will do and do and do for others all day long and then when I ask for help with something I get nothing, I won't say all of the time, but most of the time. I've decided that I will no longer be "that girl". I am actually going to start limiting what I do for others. I have always felt like I was a pretty decent person and tonight I was actually questioning that. I don't like that fact at all. And I don't like the way I was made to feel. And now because I'm pissed off I can't get out of my slump. I've started cleaning things that didn't need to be cleaned because that is what I do when I am mad. I clean and I mean I clean. I decided to sit down and type this whole thing out because I wonder if any of you mysterious readers go through this. And if you do, I'd really like to know how you deal with it!!!!!
Any suggestions or commentary would be amazing!
Let me explain, at least part of this rant. Anyone ever had one of those friends that is "never wrong"? And even if they are wrong will sit an argue all day long? I'm not one of those people. Now, I am not saying that I am always right and I admit when I am wrong. But when I talk to people like this and realize that they are like this, I probably do the wrong thing and just go along with it all. I hate arguing. Tonight, while speaking with a friend that I have that is like this, I exploded. Not in a way that should have caused me to feel the way I do. But in a way that to me just seemed like I was saying "hey, over here, listen to me, I have an opinion too!" And yet, I was still the one made to feel like a jerk, like the biggest d-bag ever. And to top it all off, it was over something minute, something stupid. So I waited a few minutes, smoked myself a ciggarette and calmed down and then I apologized. And I'm not even sure why I apologized. I was actually right. But I apologized for blowing up and being right. I feel like I tucked my tail between my legs and just fed into what she was saying. All she had to say, "you do what you need to do, I'm not sweating it. It was childish." After that response I really felt like I shouldn't have apologized. It was childish and yet you were the one who started the whole argument and told me I wasn't listening to what you were saying. I was the one who was made to feel like absolute shit. And I still feel like absolute shit even though I know that I shouldn't.
So needless to say, my whole night was basically ruined. So in my festering madness I actually sat down and did some thinking. I will do and do and do for others all day long and then when I ask for help with something I get nothing, I won't say all of the time, but most of the time. I've decided that I will no longer be "that girl". I am actually going to start limiting what I do for others. I have always felt like I was a pretty decent person and tonight I was actually questioning that. I don't like that fact at all. And I don't like the way I was made to feel. And now because I'm pissed off I can't get out of my slump. I've started cleaning things that didn't need to be cleaned because that is what I do when I am mad. I clean and I mean I clean. I decided to sit down and type this whole thing out because I wonder if any of you mysterious readers go through this. And if you do, I'd really like to know how you deal with it!!!!!
Any suggestions or commentary would be amazing!
Monday, February 7, 2011
Back in Action
I must say that I apologize fully for being absent so long. We let people stay a few days with us and then my whole family ended up with the flu. And then we finally had a normal week and now here I am.
We found a dog last night. A gorgeous german shepard who answers to the name of Zeus. Needless to say, I am already falling in love with him. I'd love to keep him here with us but for now we are trying to find his owners. My husband has given me a week to find them and if I haven't by then we have to discuss what to do. But as long as I have a say, this sweet baby won't go to a shelter.
My Abigayle has recently found her attitude. I swear she is 9 months going on 16. All day long all I hear is "Bubba". Bubba is the nickname she has given her big brother. Once I tell her that he is at school, she hollars at me! Its like "geez mom, why'd you send him to school?" I hope they get along as well as they do now when they are a little older!!!!
Not much has been going on and I really have nothing profound to say here lately. I'm kind of just going through the motions of living. I know thats not a very good way to go but I feel like time is passing way to quickly and this D-day will be here before we know it! And of course once D-day gets here and passes, the days will drag by. This is exactly what happened last deployment. I must say I don't like it. I know all of us fellow military wives go through this too. But today it just seems to be hitting me harder than normally.
We found a dog last night. A gorgeous german shepard who answers to the name of Zeus. Needless to say, I am already falling in love with him. I'd love to keep him here with us but for now we are trying to find his owners. My husband has given me a week to find them and if I haven't by then we have to discuss what to do. But as long as I have a say, this sweet baby won't go to a shelter.
My Abigayle has recently found her attitude. I swear she is 9 months going on 16. All day long all I hear is "Bubba". Bubba is the nickname she has given her big brother. Once I tell her that he is at school, she hollars at me! Its like "geez mom, why'd you send him to school?" I hope they get along as well as they do now when they are a little older!!!!
Not much has been going on and I really have nothing profound to say here lately. I'm kind of just going through the motions of living. I know thats not a very good way to go but I feel like time is passing way to quickly and this D-day will be here before we know it! And of course once D-day gets here and passes, the days will drag by. This is exactly what happened last deployment. I must say I don't like it. I know all of us fellow military wives go through this too. But today it just seems to be hitting me harder than normally.
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Fire Engine Red
Well, our houseguests have gone and moved into their new home. I hope they enjoy their new home!
While I enjoyed having them here, its nice to have my own house back, especially since my whole family has been sick! We've all had the flu!!! Well poor Abigayle had the croup and an ear infection and then had a severe reaction to the shot of medicine they gave her! The poor girl's little heiny is on fire! My truck is fire engine red and her heiny matches it! I feel so helpless in that aspect!
I really have nothing new to say. The whole being sick and having my baby be in so much pain has done nothing for my energy. I'm exhausted!!!
Until I have more to say, happy reading and happy trails!
While I enjoyed having them here, its nice to have my own house back, especially since my whole family has been sick! We've all had the flu!!! Well poor Abigayle had the croup and an ear infection and then had a severe reaction to the shot of medicine they gave her! The poor girl's little heiny is on fire! My truck is fire engine red and her heiny matches it! I feel so helpless in that aspect!
I really have nothing new to say. The whole being sick and having my baby be in so much pain has done nothing for my energy. I'm exhausted!!!
Until I have more to say, happy reading and happy trails!
Monday, January 24, 2011
I have not forgotten!
Oh dear blog fans, I have not forgotten about you! I swear! Things have been so hectic. We had friends get here from NC and we've let them stay with us until they move into their house tomorrow. I haven't had time to sit down and breathe let alone blog. I just wanted you to know that I hadn't forgotten about you. I will be back soon!
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